20 is no Different from 20

Yep, tomorrow, actually just a few moments from now I'll be turning 21. I'm trying to think of things that changed about me and I came down with quite a number. Sure, I became independent and I'm now working, I've learned the value of hardwork and have realized just how fulfilling it is to receive money that I have really worked for.

I have learned that even if I always follow my heart, there is a reason why my head is fashioned to be on the topmost part of my body. That all things that will have a great impact in my life need to be carefully thought over.

I have learned that even the smallest step can change my life in ways I can never imagine. I have seen many things, done many mistakes, kept many good memories. But I have learned that not all my experiences I need to tell other people. That not everyone will want to listen and that sometimes baring my all is not the way to go.

I have learned that keeping my life an open book is not always good. And that those who say that they are open books say everything that is really nothing of what is everything. They hide more than you think.

I have learned to trust people, to understand them, to give them a break. But I only do so once.

I have learned that anger will do no good, that diplomacy is the best way to go.

I have learned that my thoughts are more powerful than anyone's word. That nothing really matters as long as I have done right. That although the presence of a God will help, His presence is not necessary to determine what should be done at any given circumstance.

I have determined that Body Shop is my best friend.

I have not lost myself in the melange we all call "Real Life". That I am still who I was, only better, maybe a bit wiser.

I have learned that mistakes are not wrong.

I have learned that reinventing myself will take time, but it feeds my spirit to build myself to something better, something stronger for what may come in the future. I may not be as dramatic as other people, but I know that when I look at myself in the mirror I can with no regrets or doubts say:"That is the Emillene Jean Torres I want to become, but I can be better than that woman in the mirror."

So hello, Midnight, hello. My name is Ems, and I just turned Twenty-One.